hello... jus reached home.. tried to study but nth goes in =( it's so fucking complicated that i lost the mood to continue my work... as a result , i went out with her for a while as her exam was over and i wanted to go shopping too.. had a great time together but i spend a lot of $$ .. watever it is , i feel that it's all worth it ...
~~ i will treat myself better starting from now ~~
kit , the rev will find me tonight .. do u know about that ??? hahahaha ... i am tired tired tired tired.... exams are coming and i am still playing lol... i dun care! i can do it! lol.. a boring yet a fun dayy ... i hate the video on facebook.. i look so fucking retarded lol! i wan exam to be over over over over! here's a picture of me with make up LOL! during cny when i was bored and i play with my mum's cosmetics stuff ^^
hello! how is everyone doing??? today is a good day for me becos i am studying ! hahaha. yestarday was really a bad day for me.. got a really bad scolding from my mum when i came home becos i was drunk??? sorry barry and jo! and she was fucking angry with me ... i need to do some reflection =( this morning when i woke up , i feel that many things had happened but i just could not really remember some of the things that i did.. watever .... everything seem better now.. at least both of us feel great right? haha i dun ask for much... let's just treat the past as memories and look forward! i believe u will give me your moral support ^^ hehe off to call someone **
hello! i am done with collecting my ang bao hahahah! well not too bad .. this year is really a good year for me hahaha =) had lot of fun during the cny and many exciting event ... well , it's almost over soon... and we will have to wait until next year.. i feel that i am like racing with the time.. becos watever i do , i feel that time is not enough for me. it seem like many many things has yet to be done but i am still wasting my fucking time.. exams are coming soon.. if u ask me whether i have studied for it ... i can only say i have read through it but i could not really understand the concept very well .. watever it is , all the best to me muhahahaha. did i really change a lot?? i am wondering ... how was i in the past?? i have never really spend some time to understand myself well enough ... maybe in the past i am better .. but i am no longer the one in the past.. certain things dun have to be so serious ... after all this is life! i play , i laugh , i sleep , i work and i am no different from any normal human being.. look forward , never turn back anymore.. i have seem enough all this while. i am starting my new life ~~~~~ bye bye =)
i am back! anyone miss me?? lolol... yes finish collecting my ang bao haha.. had dinner just now and it was awesome! i am starting to accept it.. i am starting to get used to it.. soon everything will be over .. and new life for me... btw charmaine good luck having fun overseas alright.. thank for msging me in the morning to let me know u are going off.. rmb to sms me when u are back =)
i am going off after writing .. i am currently at relative's hse... what can i say?? boring boring! my cousin is with me now.. without her , i think i will be bored to death.. adult always mahjong mahjong lolol.. well , i take my ang bao oredi.. time for me to go lol! i will learn to take pride in everything... since it's impossible now...
the main problem with myself is that i did not spare a thought for *** i sld have found out that i sld not give any false hope and continue to make mistake over and over again .. i sld really spare a thought for *** i am gonna ignore all the calls and sms from ******* .. go away .
everything is clear bla bla bla.... one person cannot do anything wrong becos there's no turning back anymore.. haha so true that one of my friend said " human are selfish , they think for themselves and whatever stuff they have encounter in the past " .. haha since i have oredi reach until this extend , i will just continue to do what i like .... i will play , i will study i will complete all the things that i need to get it done... and i will be a more open minded person... i dun care hu it is , as long as we can communicate mean we can be friends too ... i must think for myself first next time ... becos no one will give a damn about ur life hahah! i love myself!
i am back home! a tired day for me.. went to places like orchard , dobby and novena lolol.. well , it was a fun day anyway.. get my ear stud and wanted to buy jacket... but in the end couldnt find until any suitable one for me :X i found out that i am like a robot this few days... why? becos i only slept a few hours lol.. i guess there are many things waiting for me to do it but i just need more time ... everything is ok .. everything is alright ... at least it's much much better now... i dun have to hesitate to do it or not.. i hope that my choice is the right decision... although i still feel a bit ***** but what can i do? i cant do anything ... so the only thing i could do now is to accept it.. watever blablabla... i am freakin tired now.. i need to bath and have a good sleep tonight =) * my
i am feeling so relieved today! my presentation has finally finished... overall , i feel that it's still ok.. i need more time to do the things that i wan.. kit , let's meet in heaven together and meet the rev to start our a8x band lolol! i am totally crazy now! i have the urge to drink badly.. i am addicted to it =( i need a brainwash ...i want to forget everything in the past.. it feels so miserable that i couldnt do anything now.. sld i or sld i not???
what sld i do?? what sld i do?? sld i just ignore everything and pretend that i do not know anything?? ahh god tell me what sld i do... although it's the past , but i still care. i really do =(
firstly , i would to thank god ... why?? last few days i was having a very serious gastric pain... i told myself and to my mum that if i recover and totally no pain anymore , i will not drink anymore or touch other stuff... and today i am really feeling much much better ... so i think i wunt drink anymore next time ba.. cny is coming.. i want to be healthy and stay away from all the trouble.. it feels great now.. i am not feeling pain anymore!! =)) in the afternoon , went to do my project and presentation is coming in 2 days time.. hope it will be a successful one.. bla bla bla.. everything seem to be so wonderful now ^^^ only 1 thing that i cant put behind is *** .. i duno what can i do because it's all over.. but i dun deny that i still **** her.
hello blog! i am worried .. worried about my health. until now , my gastric is still there.. i am starting to wonder if i have drank too much alcohol like vodka whisky or watever... becos i told my mum the truth that i had been drinking quite a lot for the past few weeks.. she did not scold me.. instead , she is going to accompany me to the hospital for checkup to see whether there is anything wrong with my gastric.. i am really worried that there is some problem with my gastric.. god bless me and hope everything will be fine.. if i were to recover tomoro , i promise god that i wunt drink too much anymore... tomoro after that , i still have to do project.. what to do , left 2 more days to presentation.. i have no choice ... just try my best ba. good luck to me and hope everything will be fine ^.^
i am back from gatherin with friends! yes i am really tired.. really really tired... last few night was having gastric pain to the extent that i could not really slp well.. i guess today i can have a peaceful sleep becos i drank a bit of beer ... i want to forget everything .. where the fuck have i done wrong? where?? tell me... i wan to be drunk and get away from this selfish world.. people love themselves more than anything else.. hahaha! so true. tomoro i am going church .. i hope i will be able to wake up and totally forget about all the stuffs! if i could , i would like to get drunk every night .
having this gastric pain for the whole day since last night.. i was really having a bad pain that i couldnt sleep... this morning when i woke up , i wanted to go to sch early but i could not because it was so pain that i couldnt walk.. i told my mum and she ask me what have i eat the day before.. actually i dun really know what is wrong.. and i joke with her by saying " i did many bad things that's why i have to go through this pain" .... anyway , later i will be going to see a doctor because i am worried that the pain wunt go away.. i am wondering , issit becos of the panadol? i duno i just need some treatment! today jus finish my IS law test ... it was still ok and next coming up is java presentation.. although i feel like giving up , but it's coming to an end so the only thing i could do is just to try my best.. study break coming soon ! treasure the days i have before it's gone...
hello! i am back home. gonna study for tomoro test later.. IS LAW! left 1 more weeks to the holidays.. and what i mean by holiday is study break. of cuz there will be revision and so on but it will be as intensive as this few weeks. all i can say is perseverance is the key to success! i just hope to do my best and that's it. after sch. went to find kit and went to orchard to see whether there are any things that i can buy. juewen came and we walk around and find that there is nothing special! lolol.. and btw , cj is fucking cute... first time piercing his ear and his ear was as red as an apple hahaha! overall , it was still a good day for me... after shopping , juewen drive me home and i am gonna study soon after writing ... bla bla bla.. received a model advertising name card from a lady today at orchard .. i guess i will call the company to see if i can work there after my exams are over. i want to focus on something and do things that i like so that i wunt remember all the sad memories and all the fucking stuff . i want to be myself. i want to do what i like! and ya i forgot this coming sat i am going church with my auntie lolol! gonna hear their lecture lesson again zzz.... before i end i would like to post 3 interesting pictures lol!
many stuffs to be done this week... presentation and many more.. however , it mean that holidays are coming soon ! yes right after the cny it will be my exam.. after my exam , that's it ! freedom! haha .. i tried to focus on my work.. i tried not to think too much.. because after all life still have to go on.. although i am not really in a very good mood , at least i still have the mood to do my work. watever it is , sorry for all the stuff i did again.. although i feel that there is some misunderstanding but i guess it's not that important anymore now. fan zhen ni dou bu ting wo jie shi.. forget it .. at first i really don't want to give up.. but now , i think for quite a while too and i feel that it's better for the both of us ba. u do what u like. i do what i like.. after all i am the bad guy so let me continue this way ba.. frankly speaking , i cant face you so i cant really be friend with you.. give me some time maybe we can still continue to be friend ba. ^^ good luck and study hard ^^
u never tell me how u feel. i know u are not in good mood but u just say u are not.. i wonder , when will you ever tell me how u really feel inside ur heart. i dun like you to hide ur feeling from me. because that is not what i want. i am also tired.. and i am in no mood to do anything now.. off to sleep bye bye.
~~ anyway i am just not that trustable , so am i the extra one? ~~
