i am kind of lost ... its not becos i am feeling emo or whatever.. i jus feel that the way i think , the way i feel is really different from the past... in the past , i will always tell myself that i will do well in something but i wunt go until the extent of spending my whole time doing it over and over again.. but now , its totally different... this few week there are lot of tests... i told myself that i wunt give myself too much stress but eventually i am still stress up over my school work.. however , i feel that all the things that i had done is definitely worth it.. taking for example this week's test , i did quite well and i am really glad... i want to continue this way.. i wan to do well in it and everything in life... but i am afraid that this mindset will actually affect my relationship with my friends.. i believe that some of them might be thinking why sld i go until this extent?? they are not me.. they do not know how i feel.. maybe what i did is wrong.. but definitely getting gd results and being excellent in everything is what i really hope for... i just wish that the people around me will understand me and giving me some time to stay alone.
~~ i miss her
~~ i miss her
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