quan's world

hi humans! i had a great nightmare yestarday... i dream of myself being stuck in a jungle lol! that's weird but yet interesting :xx hahaha i love dreaming because i have been dreaming for my whole entire life... hahaa ok i am going to take a shower before i go out bye bye ^^

hello! just came back from johor with my uncle ... went to buy a lot of things ... can you imagine that we lost our way in johor :X becos i am singaporean so i don't really know their way to the shopping centre... what can i say?? i still prefer singapore :X although the stuff over there are cheaper , but i still feel that singapore has more different kind of wallets and bags... i am planning to get a new wallet real soon... hmm .. off to take a shower!

the feeling is really different.. really really different... it's not the kind of feeling that i really want.. where has this feeling gone to? i dont think i am happy with it. but i have got no choice because this is life. i have to accept it. i realise about many things regarding this society... i swear to the god that i will try my best and do well in whatever i did and i want to ensure that my bright future is waiting for me.. i will prove it instead of words. i dont need to show it to anyone.. i just want to prove to myself that i can do it and i WILL do it.

life's aren't that great this few days... cockroach attack again =( it ran to my brother's room.. who cares?? :XX seriously , sometime when i thought about certain things , i realise that many things should not have been done in the first place but i still went to do it... it's kind of funny huh? sometime i do not know what i want too ... that's when i start to mess up everything and eventually things get out of hands. when i tried to solve the problem , it seem like everything is against me... fuck this shit. come on just let the 2 years pass and finish my army asap ... i want to start work asap .. i know it's not easy out there but i am willing to work hard for it... at least i need something for me to focus on so that i wont feel troubled over all small things. it's kinda pathetic... humans are not perfect. i believe that one day when i get older , i will realise that whatever stuff i did now was all wrong in the first place.. but i just want to have some "childhood" ... it's like a child without any childhood is as good as not leading a meaningful life. in a nutshell , i just want to do things that i want now when i have the ability to do so.. soon , all this "good" time will be over... soon...

off to sleep good night ^^

below is the lyrics for the song baby steps! i love this song to the max!

(Ohh) (Yeah yeah)

Admit it, we're finished
You don't want me no more (No)
Like a night mare, I lived it
It was too big to ignore (Ooh)
I hear the sirens but they pass me by.
My hazard lights are flashing, somebody, anyone

HELP cause its an emergency.
Someone just wounded my heart.
So HELP, its like a bad surgery and now its time to recharge.
I'm starting over taking,

One, two, baby steps.
Three, four, baby steps.
Five, six, baby steps.
I'm starting over again.

Abandonded, yeah I'm crying.
Its like you left me for dead (So dead, so dead)
I'm so broken, my love's frozen.
How do you live with regrets (Oh woah)
I see the memories flash before my eyes.
My tank is running empty, somebody rescue me.

HELP cause its an emergency.
Someone just wounded my heart.
So HELP, its like a bad surgery
And now its time to recharge.
I'm starting over taking,

One, two, baby steps.
Three, four, baby steps.
Five, six, baby steps.

I'm starting over taking,
One, two, baby steps.
Three, four, baby steps.
Five, six, baby steps.
I'm starting over again.

Its unexplainable
Kind of and unattainable
When the person you love aint enough.
I feel so pitiful
Look at my face you'll know the pain is in my eyes.
I need some, help.


HELP cause its an emergency.
Someone just wounded my heart.
So HELP its like a bad surgery and now its time to recharge.

HELP cause its an emergency.
Someone just wounded my heart.
So HELP its like a bad surgery and now its time to recharge.

I'm starting over taking,
One, two, baby steps.
Three, four, baby steps.
Five, six, baby steps.
I'm starting over again.

I'm starting over taking,
One, two, baby steps.
Three, four, baby steps.
Five, six, baby steps.
I'm starting over again.

hello! i am back from jogging ^^ wake up in the morning .. ate some breadfast and help to clean the house before i went out... actually today i wanted to rest but my friend ask me to accompany him to collect his pay... so as a loyal friend , i did :X after that , went for shopping until 5+ and went straight home to change ... went for jogging at around 6.30pm as the weather was not hot at all.. had my great time exercising at amk park and went off at around 8 and immediately go for shower when i reached home.. what a great day right?? i feel so refresh now because exercising is good for health ^^ i feel much better... but i still miss you.

so many things running through my mind right now... it seem like i have not completed something... seriously , the amount of fun that i had is way enough for me... maybe it's time to really do something to contribute to the society... i just have the urge to really do something meaningful... i have miss out lot of things in the past but at the same time it gave me a motivation to learn from it and eventually complete those things that i had neglected... not only that , i realise that i have never forgot about you at all.. no matter who i am with , you are still the one i always thought of.. the only thing i could do is to avoid and avoid.. i cant really think of other ways anymore.. i need to reach my goal and i should stop spending! i am tired =(

hello!!! i am back ! i miss home! hahahaha.. went to eat supper with friends... seriously , i will get fat soon if i continue to eat supper everytime haha... woke up early in the morning just to check my result lolol. hmmm not very good but not very bad... 3.1 ... to me is good enough becos i am a slacker! i am feeling so full now... when i reached home , my mum force me to eat pizza too because she say that throwing it away is as good as throwing money away ... i had no choice but to help and clear the food... i am fucking full now! i am planning to go shopping soon again to get the things i want! maybe next week?? i just love my life now! come on introduce more music to me babe..

guess what is the time now??? 5am!!! everyone is sleeping while i am still awake... not because i cant slp ... i am busy killing cockroach! lol!! found 1 cockroach on the floor but when i tried to kill it, it ran to hide =(( i cant really sleep with a cockroach hiding inside my room.. i am a clean freak come on! fuck cockroach! i feel like a fool waiting for the cockroach to come out ... pathetic shit !

why do u have to keep so many things from me? like seriously....

hey hey hey! hello! i am back from bbq! lot of exciting activities and i had a great great day over there... although i left early ... at around 8++ ??? but the food was really nice... wanted to head home straight after the bbq event as i wanted to watch the charity show! we are a bunch of lucky people with healthy body! we must really take care of our own health and i feel guilty saying this becos i have been drinking and .... smoking :X hehe next week meeting emogirl again ... i know she miss me and she wanted to watch movie with me so much hahaha.. ok as promise , see u next week! now , i seriously want to learn piano ... i love music and i am really interested to learn! someone teach me please? i will be a very good student :X

just to keep this dead blog alive so here i am to post 1 picture for fun?? :XX going out now goodbye! bbq again tomoro!

cool morning with raining cats and dogs.. it feel so good as the weather has been very hot for this few months ... even when i sleep every night , i have to switch on aircon... had a really good sleep last night as i was really very tired.. slept at around 8.55pm ?? next bbq event coming up =((( goodbye to my throat. enjoy myself baby!

~~ miss ya~~

let me begin my post by praising emogirl for being such a good cooker :X yes went to her house today with her cousin as she say that she want us to be her "sample" ... lol well, the food was not bad! seriously , u are good enough to be a chief * roll eyes*
had a great day at her house and we watch movie until 6+ ?? after that we went for dinner at the nearby market and off i go! so now i just had my shower and online! time for some games!

~~ reality is cruel ~~

at *** house now!

just reached home.. i am tired.. really fucking tired. i wish that i could fall asleep and never wake up. btw , thank for being there o. i will treat *** well.

it seem so near yet so far.. when u are right here , i could not bring myself to open my mouth.. when u are gone , i have so much to say to you. when will human really treasure something before they are gone? i am no way better than anyone . i have taken for granted many many things in the past and i am sure that those thing will never come back anymore.. should i be sad over the past or should i be happy for the future? it's for me to know and for you to find out =) people , treasure everything that is around you before they are gone! step by step , i will be able to prove that time will heal everything but the memories will never vanished. i love you.

hello! i jus reached home at around 3.30am ... had a great day for the bbq event... seriously it's fun but i did not get drunk!! hhahaa the reason is becos i have to take care of other people when they are drunk... frankly speaking , it's good to actually gather with ur friends for such event once in a while... it's like so cool and fun ^^ apart from that , i still think about the things that i should not even think about it.. i always say that i can forget the past and look forward... yes i did look forward but forgetting is really way too hard for me... whenever i sit down , the first thing in my mind was about you.. i told myself that i will never turn back... but when i miss her and i cant do anything , it's really really miserable.. i really hope i can use alcohol to make myself numb but i cant always do that... maybe some people say i am like a playboy or what i dun care ... whenever i get to sleep , the first person i thought of is you.. i am a human too i have feeling ... so i will never forget the past be it memories or the time that we spend together .. i really hope that u will stay happy be it now or in the future and i wish you all the best in whatever you do .. i will never forget you . let me just get on with the life that i am leading now... it would be better for us =)

~~ i tried but i fail ~~

off for bbq soon! let's get drunk !

cool korea song :X

a cool and peaceful day for me ... more events coming up ... time is really running up... it seem like 24 hours a day is not enough for me... i need a time machine ... hmm ... on sat bbq event , i hope that i can really stop drinking becos i drink for a reason.. but i do not want to always drink when i am feeling down or what... and seriously i can feel that it's not good for my health.. but why do i still do it? i duno sometime is becos of temptation... but i really hope that i can stop all those things that will cause damage to my body. but sometime when you are feeling down , you would not really think so much about it ... that's me .. i do what i wan .. i do what i like.. but that's a limit to everything .. i just want to forget all the stuffs .. i do not want to turn back anymore.

~~ i have everything that i need and i treasure what i have now ~~

i have spent a lot of money this few days on buffet , bbq , entertainment activities ... and and and , i bought an ipod today ... so u can imagine how much i have spent within this few days! i am not gonna spend money for the rest of the days :XX

today is her birthday .... i still remember even if it's 5 years , 6 years or 7 years ... i will always remember march 9 is her birthday but i dunno how am i going to wish her happy birthday? hai.

yoyoyoyo! i am back! went to bugis , friend's hse and slack with my friends ! hahaha i am really tired... tomoro morning have to get up early for soccer match at east coast =( today spend quite a lot of $$$ becos i bought some shirts for myself.. next wishlist is ipod 16gb lol! my psp sound system got problem! i need music badly ... other than using computer to listen to music , i need it too when i am outside... should i buy the 16gb ipod nano??? let me consider for a while first ^^ i am enjoying my sweet now while typing hehehe.. i guess i have to really stop spending $$ becos there will be more bbq event coming up which needs a lot of $$$ ... and and and , i sld stop drinking for a while becos i am like a clown when i am drunk! hahahha.. anyway i really enjoy my holidays and hope that my exam results will be acceptable ^^

~~ how should i start a conversation with you? ~~

money money money!! more more more =) yea my exam has finally finished! i am feeling so relax now hahahaha... i can do what i like , go where i wan and drink whenever i want! muhahaha i feel like i am like a bird release from the cage ... time for more shopping ! lalalal ... just reached home.. had a fun day outside!!! i am off to play cs! bye bye...

take a look at the views! 133 million lol.... last paper and my freedom is back! =)))) time for some shopping spree soon!