quan's world

this few days when i am brushing my teeth or washing my mouth there will always be blood .. i really wonder what is wrong.. i dont feel pain but it just keep bleeding.. arrr. i am really tired now.. finally a rest for me now because i am back home ! feel so tired yet worth it. i dont feel good this few days because i am sick + so many things running through my mind. i wonder what is the best for me. hai.

oh so great.. sick for 2 days... i didnt know that i will fall sick at this period of time.. i was still eating snack last few days.. now i know why mum ask me not to eat too much snack lol! currently downloading all the work for the coming weeks so that all my answer can be input into the laptop instead of finding through the notes and i think it's neater. i feel so lost suddenly arrr.. but i am feeling much better now.. just that my flu just wunt go away ;( seriously my nose is way too sensitive and i cant really breathe during the haze period .. ! sorry if this few days i did not reply your sms because i have my reason haha.. currently waiting for mac to come!! i am so damn hungry right now.. i am going to reward myself with mac although i am sick hahaha . i hope it wont get worst because i have to go school tomoro ! baby is still have lessons in school and i guess i should not disturb her by keep smsing her. she should focus focus focus instead of sms sms sms ! i love her so i should not be so selfish.. =) love you ohhh baby ~~ i know one day u will come and read it lol.

if u ask me if i were to be given 1 wish , what would i hope for.. my answer is to move to other country and lead my peaceful life.. no special reason for it . i just like to be a carefree person.. it would be even better if i could go there with baby so that only we 2 live together and lead the kind of life we want until the day i die without any regret. people might say what i did is not worth it .. to be honest , i dont really care what others say . i do what i like . if being human has to worry about so many stuff , den what is the use of living a meaning life right? whatever i do is for myself .. or maybe should i say since i was young , as long as i want to get something i can get it ... i have good parent i cant deny it. i will never forget . but what i want is to do what i like and be a cheerful person.. why should we care about what others say? you live for yourself come on! to be honest , i dont really trust anyone even until today. i trust myself i believe in myself. that's what i am make of. i believe god will lead everyone to the right path . for me ? it depend on myself! yes i do study in school but i am not that kind of person who will be so hardcore to chiong study or whatever . people around me know that i am those kind of "slacker " because i dont really focus in school as i will be doing other thing. this is me! the way i study is different from people i have my own method and ways to study . i dont like to suck up to the lecturer or so on. to be honest , i dont think many things taught in school can be applied on our working area other than the thinking part. many things involve your action and the way u express yourself in front of the customer. i believe if you are sincere , anyone will accept you . so to me i still have to study but i wont go until to the extend of chionging . i remember my uncle once told me that person who is very good in studying does not mean they will earn lot of $$ .. however , people who are not really good in studying does not mean they cant earn as much $$ as those who has very good result. it's all about your target your goal and action. everyone can do it but it depend on how well you understand what you really "Want" . this will be a very long post because i got many many thoughts in my mind and i need to write it out so that i will feel better ;) to my baby , sorry for making you angry just now oh. i dont mean it .. tomoro i am going to see you and i will show you that i really love you :D

just came home not long ago from school.. all i can say is tue suck! because it's until 6pm! oh my god by the time i get home and bath it will be around 7pm... but the good thing is i can actually focus on something and try my best on it... i think it's kind of meaningful to focus on work instead of other stuff.. BUT , it does not mean that i like to do work :( anyway it's part of life , i am just doing what i should be doing and i dont really like to compare with others . that's me. one more thing to take note of is to save money! i have been spending on many stuff last few weeks and even on school notes all this. i am paying by myself for this few weeks expenses. i guess i should really stop spending and really control what i am buying. i miss baby... i am still smsing with her ... she is coming to find me on fri and i am looking forward to see her =) even just a minute or two , i will still feel happy because i love her =) i will get to sleep early tonight because i am really really tired and tomoro i have to go back school! cyas. love you baby!

ahhhh.. tomoro school reopen le! i feel really emo now because i have not enjoyed enough! spend my last day of holidays with baby.. she keep hold onto me and dont want to let go because she is afraid i will be very busy in school lol.. well , no matter how busy i will try my best to spare some time for you ok my dear? i am eating pizza now before i am off to sleep.. a tiring day yet a fun and memorable day. i wish that time could stop at this moment so that nth can separate us .. well , we still have to face the fact. life goes on. let's try our best ok?? i really look forward to the next holidays!

oh my god.. i am getting emo this few days because school is starting soon! everyone including those o level students just finished their o level i guess and they must be having a great time! i still remember the kind of feeling that i felt when i finish the last mcq paper which was chemistry if i am not wrong. i really miss secondary school life ;( whatever it is , i should face it and look forward to a new start on monday :( baby is sleeping now after texting her. i am going to sleep too because i woke up very early this morning. i should get a rest. love you baby sweet dream. sorry baby below is a pic of you blushing LOL. see the cute red ear :X

if i could , i will keep everything that belongs to me in my pocket so that no one can steal it away :X i know it's impossible but i am just saying IF . although IF should not even exist as a word. baby wanted me to update this blog .. i update this blog for you. are you touched?? hahaha don laugh ok. spend whole day with baby because she was dismiss early from sch.. i am getting more stress because when sch start , i will be quite busy and i am trying to find sometime to accompany baby =( Baby dun worry about me going back to sch ok hahaha. i promise you those stuff i will do it and i wont break the promises de. just made my new spec and i guess i should be able to get it by tomoro night? hopefully i can get it and return to sch with a fresh start ^^^ all the best for everyone. lastly , baby i love you from the bottom of my heart :)

~~ i wonder , i wonder

gonna make this blog alive so i am back here . apart from reviving this blog , my baby want to see if i did spend some time to update this boring space. to be honest , i like this place because i can express how i am feeling because i am not used to explain to them how i feel . so ya ^^ school is starting and i am so NOT looking forward to it .. i still remember 1 month ago i was still so excited because i have just finished my exam ... time really flies. everything seem to be moving so quickly and i am going to be back to school in 3 days time ;( baby is worried about me going back to sch because she is afraid of... hahaha you know you know ^^ dont worry it wont happen =) i should seriously take some time and plan out my future. i am getting older and older every year and one day i will become an old man. i should really treasure the time that i have now since i am still young :X i miss baby right now.. going to meet her later and i bet she is missing me right now because i am sneezing hahaha. just jailbreak my iphone and i kinda like the new look now. ^^

baby i said that this post will be for you. tomoro your school will be starting and i know u are sad that we might not have as much chance to meet like now. but trust me , i said i love you and i mean it. dont be scare because the things that you are scare of will never happen. the past is the past. you are what i see in the future. i want u to study hard not only for me but for yourself. i will be proud of you if you can do well in sch. as for me , i will always be there to support you and to listen to you. just hang up the phone and now i am writing this for you. one day when u see this , you will know that i am no longer like the past. all the past are history and will never repeat again. all i want to do now is to do well in my stuff , and to love you with all my heart . i want to live without any regret so i am treasuring what i have now. in the past i always said but i never do it. but now it's totally different. i am older now and i know what is important to me. you are the one i truly love my dear. study hard!

quan ^^

i will treasure those time that we had. really. i know you are afraid but trust me i will treasure you no mattter what because you really did a lot for me. i love you =) enjoyed myself every time i am with you ^^

i just want to treat you well thats all. why cant u just understand me? the most i could do is numb myself and doing things that i normally dont do it.. should i go until this extent?