life's aren't that great this few days... cockroach attack again =( it ran to my brother's room.. who cares?? :XX seriously , sometime when i thought about certain things , i realise that many things should not have been done in the first place but i still went to do it... it's kind of funny huh? sometime i do not know what i want too ... that's when i start to mess up everything and eventually things get out of hands. when i tried to solve the problem , it seem like everything is against me... fuck this shit. come on just let the 2 years pass and finish my army asap ... i want to start work asap .. i know it's not easy out there but i am willing to work hard for it... at least i need something for me to focus on so that i wont feel troubled over all small things. it's kinda pathetic... humans are not perfect. i believe that one day when i get older , i will realise that whatever stuff i did now was all wrong in the first place.. but i just want to have some "childhood" ... it's like a child without any childhood is as good as not leading a meaningful life. in a nutshell , i just want to do things that i want now when i have the ability to do so.. soon , all this "good" time will be over... soon...
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